changing the past knowing the truth

Never thought of changing the past have i
always remembered happy thoughts have i

always have scrutinized the present i
shaping it into a gift of the future have i

... but once, oh for once have this wish of going back i
into the past, knowing it is a true love between you and i

remembering my goddess and hoping for honesty in eyes...
a wish of telling you your beauty in my eyes have i

this wish is a face of reality or I
a contradiction of fantasy as reality, thinking am i

but the fantasy of reality grows and,
love of my love grows over the I

my heart says mesmerized
I wish i was back there...
I wish i had told her...

Now thinking of changing the past am i...